Off-Broadway producer and film director Fred Caruso died Monday in an apparent suicide in Las Vegas at age 41, leaving behind a final farewell on the Facebook page of his 2009 film, The Big Gay Musical.
Caruso, who was also involved with creating the Off-Broadway hit Newsical, said in the note that he had found peace before his death. He also details the years of inner turmoil he’s endured, and that he’d attempted suicide just one week earlier by taking 30 Ambien.
In the note, he reiterates that he was confident in his decision to take his own life, after trying his best to “deal with this.” He also asks if anyone wishes to take action, to send a donation to the Trevor Project, “where they help people that can helped.”
You can read the full note below: